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it's been a month
May. 31st, 2019 02:22 amwhich means it's time to talk about this new dress I bought! NO I'M KIDDING WE'RE ALSO TALKIN ABOUT MY POSSIBLE DYSOPHORIA AND GENERALLY MY GENDER INCONGRUENCE LOL
it's teracotta! which means it's a shade of orange. but it's adorable! I FRICKIN LOVE IT OK
also I have a ton of pantyhoses now, which is good. pantyhoses are soft and keep my legs warm and allow me to walk around with "bared legs" and not see my leg hair.
I can't frickin believe I hadnt figured that out earlier, but like. the entire reason for which I never wear shorts, and always wear long pants even in summer, and become super uncomfortable whenever people ask me to wear shorts, who cares, you're not going to get cold.
LEG HAIR. ITS FUCKIN LEG HAIR. I JUST HAVE THIS LEG HAIR AND I HATE IT. HIDE IT. HIDE IT AWAY. THAT IS WHY.
how did I not figure out I'm trans earlier holy shit. what's worse, I would TALK to this to my parents, and dad would be like "look I was like that at your age and I grew out of it" which wasn't helpful, and then mom would be like "boys don't do that. You could epilate, but it hurts like hell, so I shave my legs". Also, she wears skin-colored pantyhoses. Honestly i GET WHY FRICK
anY WAYS thanks to PANTYHOSES i can now wear my dresses + be warm + hide away my fuckin uhhhh LEG HAIR which grows back too fast but uh
here's the catch
please type "pantyhose" in a seach engine
that is correct: it's sexualized as heck. first you take away chokers, which are cool (that is fact, imagine a spiky choker: awesome, right? right.) and now you take aways frickn pantyhoses? I wont stand for that. pantyhoses are cute. let me have them or perish.
alSO I thought shopping for clothes in a full store would be awkward but guess what I was WRONG
in a full store nobody notices you, nobody cares. in the local clothes shop where there's no one EVERYONE IS LOOKING AT YOU 100%
but in your local crowded supermarket thing? no one cares what everybody else is doing. you could be carrying a dishwasher on your back, no one would really say anything. not to mention, no one goes there to buy clothes, so the clothes area will most likely be empty. also the clothes are cheaper and you can have. DRESS.
but. there's nowhere to try them on, so you better know your size.
...Frick. I kinda want to take pics of me now. I'm fully clothed and everything so I might as well? I may post them later.
I kinda want to sleep with my clothes, but this pantyhose there is really cheap, so I'll almost certainly break it doing this... I could take it out, or I could enjoy a good comfy night. Mmmmh...
crap t's now 15:33 and I'm realizing I hadn't posted this. So I might as well give an update! the night was awesome, dress soft and warm, pantyhose comfy and fun. A v good night, one of the best I've had actually!
it's teracotta! which means it's a shade of orange. but it's adorable! I FRICKIN LOVE IT OK
also I have a ton of pantyhoses now, which is good. pantyhoses are soft and keep my legs warm and allow me to walk around with "bared legs" and not see my leg hair.
I can't frickin believe I hadnt figured that out earlier, but like. the entire reason for which I never wear shorts, and always wear long pants even in summer, and become super uncomfortable whenever people ask me to wear shorts, who cares, you're not going to get cold.
LEG HAIR. ITS FUCKIN LEG HAIR. I JUST HAVE THIS LEG HAIR AND I HATE IT. HIDE IT. HIDE IT AWAY. THAT IS WHY.
how did I not figure out I'm trans earlier holy shit. what's worse, I would TALK to this to my parents, and dad would be like "look I was like that at your age and I grew out of it" which wasn't helpful, and then mom would be like "boys don't do that. You could epilate, but it hurts like hell, so I shave my legs". Also, she wears skin-colored pantyhoses. Honestly i GET WHY FRICK
anY WAYS thanks to PANTYHOSES i can now wear my dresses + be warm + hide away my fuckin uhhhh LEG HAIR which grows back too fast but uh
here's the catch
please type "pantyhose" in a seach engine
that is correct: it's sexualized as heck. first you take away chokers, which are cool (that is fact, imagine a spiky choker: awesome, right? right.) and now you take aways frickn pantyhoses? I wont stand for that. pantyhoses are cute. let me have them or perish.
alSO I thought shopping for clothes in a full store would be awkward but guess what I was WRONG
in a full store nobody notices you, nobody cares. in the local clothes shop where there's no one EVERYONE IS LOOKING AT YOU 100%
but in your local crowded supermarket thing? no one cares what everybody else is doing. you could be carrying a dishwasher on your back, no one would really say anything. not to mention, no one goes there to buy clothes, so the clothes area will most likely be empty. also the clothes are cheaper and you can have. DRESS.
but. there's nowhere to try them on, so you better know your size.
...Frick. I kinda want to take pics of me now. I'm fully clothed and everything so I might as well? I may post them later.
I kinda want to sleep with my clothes, but this pantyhose there is really cheap, so I'll almost certainly break it doing this... I could take it out, or I could enjoy a good comfy night. Mmmmh...
crap t's now 15:33 and I'm realizing I hadn't posted this. So I might as well give an update! the night was awesome, dress soft and warm, pantyhose comfy and fun. A v good night, one of the best I've had actually!
